I'm a schmuck.
You know it, and I know it.
There's no reason to hide around the bush. You don't have to politely advert your eyes, or say, "no, no, I wasn't thinking that," because we both know you were. And so am I.
I'm a schmuck.
Admitting that you have a problem is the first step towards fixing it, right?
Okay, so here's the prob...
I don't want to do this anymore.
I want a Do-Over.
I want to wake up and have a whole new, damn-she's-hot-and-oh-so-sexy body.
I don't want it to be so HARD!
I don't want to be accountable.
I don't want to keep track of every little thing that goes in my mouth.
I don't want to exercise.
I don't want to choose salad instead of ice cream for dinner.
I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't want to!
Do I sound like I'm 5 or what?
Alright....deep breath.
Innnnnnnnnn...............
Ouuuuuuuut................
Maybe another...........
Okay.
I'm ready to put on my big girl panties and pretend to be a grown up.
Only occasional whining.
And I'll try to be honest with you again.
And honest with myself too.
So let's start this honesty by saying I honestly have done crap to lose weight since the beginning of summer. Our move from old house to new house helped me put on 15 pounds...and I've only taken 5 off. I've been stuck in this rut of good intentions on Saturday morning being swept out the door by Saturday afternoon at the Chinese buffet.
I haven't exercised consistently -- and you all know how much of a struggle that is.
I haven't been blogging.
Or tracking.
Or caring.
I want to care.
I really do.
So I'm going to take the advice of trying to Fake It Till You Make It, and see if that helps.
And I'm going to ask for a little help.
From you, gentle reader. If you're out there.
I've been blessed to be told that I've motivated others out there by my little blog.
But now, I need some motivation myself.
So, if you're out there, reading this,
and you think I can do it, even when I don't think I can,
well, let me know.
5 comments:
YOU CAN DO IT!!! I'm back so I'll see you Saturday morning. Maybe we can actually chat this time! I managed to not gain during vacation! But I got a heck of a lot more exercise than I do at home so this week will be tough.
You have a great blog -- don't abandon it! My wife and I keep checking to see if you'll update it.
Free advice, take it or leave it: you were invested in a WW process and stayed in it for six months. But then you recalled another process that you had fond memories of, and not long after you switch wagons, you may have fallen off the wagon. Now, don't lose heart--but I think the first WW process you were on was working. But when you started to tinker with it, started to give yourself more power, well....
I think an analogy to smoking or alcohol addiction might fit: you have to tell yourself again, "Today is Day One" and start from there. It's not about how many times you fall down, but how many times you stand back up.
if ever there was a spiritual struggle that was not just against flesh and blood I'm starting to see this is it! I used to think on what my then music minister said about her weight loss issues. She told me it really started out as a spiritual issue for her-I shrugged it off as a "pfff, yeah right" type of thing-I mean, I know all about struggling spiritually, this fat and eating too much thing is all in me-a personal thing not a God thing. Wow have my eyes ever been opened! Thank you for your honest journey with all ups and downs, you are still doing this simply because you haven't stopped-keep getting back up Dorian, I want you to succeed friend!
You can do it, Kippy! I said a little prayer!
HI Dorain! I am so happy that you posted- I missed it! I know that someday you WILL be a famous writer. I will buy your book and make my book club members read it.
Chrissy
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