Am I a Bad Person?

Okay, I have to make a confession...
There is this part of my personality that not many people know about because I'm so shy.
Here it is:  I'm secretly super-duper competitive.
I mean, really, really competitive.
There's one thing that has irked me for a very long time, and for some reason I feel the need to share it.

I'm secretly borderline obsessed about comparing my body to other people.
I check out other people, women especially, and wonder, Am I smaller than she is?
Or, if that person is obviously fit and trim, I can't help but look for other flaws to compare myself to.
At least my nose is smaller...
I dress better...
I have nicer hair...
I've got better lips...
My eyes are prettier...
The list could go on and on.

I really don't like this about myself.  I have to be very conscious about it to keep it from happening, because it is so automatic.

My most recent competition is with one of my BFF's and she doesn't even know about it.  Not to my knowledge anyway.  She probably will after reading this though.  She's a good person; I think she'll forgive me.  She will probably even chuckle.  I'm hoping so.

So, one of my BFF's that I have known since I was a freshman in college, has always, always been smaller than me.  Even at her largest weight, she was still about 20 pounds lighter than I was.  This has been a continual challenge for me - to become smaller than she is.  I never, ever have mentioned this to her.  In fact, I've only told one other person about this competitive side to my nature, and that within the last month.  I've been carrying this around inside of me for a very long time.

Well, said BFF is now very likely gaining weight.  For good reasons, not bad...she's preggers.  Yea for her!  And yea for me too, because this has given me the unique opportunity to lose weight and hopefully reach one of my life's goals: to weigh less than her.

There, I admitted it.
I'm awful.
I'm such a sneaky, competitive person.
Does that make me a bad person?
Or does that mean I'm just human?