How can something that began so right turn into something so wrong?
I haven't been posting on my blog for two reasons:
1. I'm exhausted. I really need to get to bed before 11. That doesn't happen very often.
2. I'm ashamed. I totally have caved this week, and I didn't want to post it for all the world to see. But I know that facing my mistakes and disappointments will help me to get over them faster. So here I am...dealing.
The weekend had a good start to it. I weighed in on Saturday and lost. I felt good. I even faced the challenge of the first Chinese buffet of the year. I went in with a game plan: eat a big plate of salad, a cup of soup, and then a plate of my favorite buffet food and count every point. It worked great.
Then on Sunday I brought WW food to my sister-in-law's house for a Valentine's Day family get-together and it all went horribly, horribly awry. Oh the shame, the shame...
I brought chicken pot pie, and WW cake (angel food cake mixed with pie filling...I call them "cakies" and they're yummy). Most of the food was WW friendly, so I was doing okay until I went back for 2nds and then 3rds, and yes, even 4ths of my cakies, and some rice krispy treats my mother had brought.
By the time I got home that night I was in a sugar tizzy. Thankfully, we didn't have any candy in the house, because I would have been all over it like white on rice. But I did make a huge dent in the cakies. I was a cakie addict.
One thing lead to another, and I found myself wrapped tightly in a snowball of food addiction doing a free fall down the side of Fat Girl Mountain. That's not an Olympic sport unfortunately.
I'm still in the midst of my free fall. Just tonight I stopped at Sonic for some onion rings, and later went by Panda Express for more of their Chinese Sweet-Fire-heroin-like-chicken that I'm so addicted to. I was ready to sign-up for a slow drip IV of sweet & sour sauce right into my veins. It's bad. It's real bad. I wonder if I could take a leave of absence from life to check into a fat farm for a few months. I think I need professional help.
Why can't I just stop?? What's wrong with me?! WHY IS THIS SO DAMN HARD!?!
I just wish this was like a switch I could flip. FLIP! Now I can eat like a normal person. FLIP! Now I'm only going to eat food that is good for me. FLIP! Now I won't gorge myself on crab rangoons and lo-mein noodles.
I saw this clip that I'm posting below from You Tube. If I could just follow Bob Newheart's advice, life would be so much simpler.
3 comments:
I love that clip. I tell Steve to use that when he has to counsel people. just STOP IT!
And I love you too. Don't beat yourself up too hard. Just pick up the pieces and try again.
You can do this!! You were behind me at Sonic and I must say I was worried you would find me out...I was in the same kind of freefall, except I ate at Sonic for BREAKFAST AND DINNER!! I sure did. I know I shouldn't have, but I did...and I drank a REAL coke. Oh the shame!! Oh...did I mention that I at at McDonald's for lunch when I left at the half day? Yes...I ate out 3 times in one day and I did not eat a single vegetable. It is time to get back on the horse...I will if you will!! Love ya!! You can definitely do this Dorian! There are always bumps in the road.
You guys are awesome. Thank you so much!!
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