I'm on the verge of tears. Stressed out. Sleep deprived. Frustrated. And angry.
I blame everything but myself. I can do that, right?
So here's the what:
Parent-Teacher conferences this week. Two nights and one morning of smiling, nodding, and saying, "Really? He's able to do that at home, but not demonstrate that here at school? Hmmm, interesting..."
I actually don't mind Parent-Teacher conferences (most of the time), but I do mind that they go until 7:30 at night which is right in the middle of my workout time. (And before some smart-aleck says "Why don't you get up a little early and exercise?" and makes me want to smack them, I'd have to say that I'm already getting up as early as I can get my lazy butt out of bed, and I'm not getting up any earlier. You can't make me.) So there's that little issue, not to mention that for both nights dinner will be provided by the PTA, which is nice and all, but I predict that one night will be greasy pizza, and the other night will be sub sandwiches. Neither of those are exactly low in points.
So with no exercise and sad dinner choices, I'm feeling pretty bummed. But that's not all.
I have my first big project due for my current graduate-level class in digital photography, specifically using Photoshop to doctor a photo. I've never used Photoshop before in my life, and I'm way intimidated. I've been checking out tutorials online, but when I try to do it, something just seems to keep going wrong. I'm a Photoshop flunky. It's stressing me out big time because I have to have my project ready for peer review by midnight on Wednesday, and I don't have time to work on it because of, you guessed it!, Parent-Teacher conferences. Uggh.
But...THAT'S NOT ALL!!
Before I go on, let's do a little recap:
Parent-Teacher conferences = big stress
No time to exercise = big butt
No pizza = good choice, but sad little me
Homework Assignment = more big stress
No time = hives, jitters and spasms in my left eye
Finally (Geeze, it's like this week of whining will NEVER end!), we have our class Valentine's Day party on Wednesday. What's the big deal, you ask? The deal is that every year I get a bunch of candy, chocolates and cookies from my students. Have you been listening about me and chocolate?? I just don't know if I'm going to survive this Wednesday. There's only so much White Knuckling Moment that I can take. If it were just the presents, maybe I could handle that, but then there's the party food...ON MY DESK. I wish there was another desk to set food on, way across the other side of the room, but there just isn't. Hmm....maybe I can finagle something though. Hey little Jimmy, you don't need your desk for the last hour of school today, do you? You don't mind standing, right? I can work with that.
So now that it's midnight, I'm going to take a shower, obsess over any indications of shrinking on my naked body for a few minutes, and go to bed. Tomorrow is a new day. I can make it.
Cummon you! Think positive thoughts!!
I can make good choices.
I can just say no to chocolate and cookies and cake and ice cream. Maybe.
I can bring dinner to school and stay far, far away from
I can do my best to figure out at least something on Photoshop and procure an A for myself and my 4.0 GPA.
I can find something positive to say about every child. Well....almost every child.
I can make it. I am strong. I am an Amazon.
Roar?
3 comments:
You ARE an Amazon! You CAN do it! The candy you'll get has been sitting in a warehouse for 3 years anyway; just think of that and you won't want to eat it. Hang in there!
You CAN do it Dorian!!! This is just a bump in the road. Okay ... maybe a BIG bump! But that's part of life and these are the times we used to lose sight of the goal & give in to eating. Think of this as an opportunity to eat like a thin person. What choices would they make in the same circumstances? Also know that you don't have to be perfect. If these are the only 3 days that you aren't able to workout in the month ... does it really matter?
I know you can handle this week. Here are a few thoughts to try and help.
1) Google at home workouts. There are videos on Youtube, Self, Health, etc... A little exercise is better than none. You can still give yourself credit for digging in and doing something at the end of a very long day, even if it isn't as much as you would normally.
2)Pack snacks to help you avoid temptation...AND visualize how bad your digestive will HURT if you eat those greasy/sugary fat bombs.
3)Is there some way your teacher might give you a little slack on the assignment? I've had to approach teachers a time or two with evidence of a crazy work schedule and they were merciful.
Just some thoughts on the subject. Other than these, take it one day at a time, babe. Even if you do slip a bit, these are just small bits of time in a grand scheme.
Keep at it, you're doing great!
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