Um, Honestly....

Today is Weigh-In Day.  I think I need to come up with something alliterative.  I love alliteration.  I mean, I absolutely adore alliteration.  Ha!  How about we call today....SUPER SCALE SATURDAY!  or SLIM DOWN SATURDAY!  or - GASP!!! - I have it!!! - SUPER SEXY SLENDERIFIC SENSATIONAL SATURDAY WEIGH IN!  Or Weigh In times S to the 5th power.  


Okay, I can see that's going to be a work in progress.

Anywho, on my way to S5WI (<--- Have you been paying attention?) I stopped at the local Quick Trip gas station for some liquid refreshment before weighing in.  As I'm walking towards the back of the store towards the wonderful dispenser of all things caffeinated and carbonated, I pass a girl and a guy I assume is her boyfriend.  Now, the girl is beautiful.  She has one of those faces that is model-esque.  And this is in spite of the fact that she is not only at least 100lbs heavier than I am, but also about half a foot shorter.  You get the point, she's a big, beautiful girl.

So, my initial thought was, "Wow, she's pretty."

And then as I pass by her and her male companion, she holds up a bag containing 2 QT sausages, similar to brauts, and says to her friend, "I hope these aren't both for me.  There's no way I can eat both of these."

This whole scene took place in about 3 seconds as I walked through the door and towards the soda dispenser, but I have been thinking about this moment all day long.

Why, you ask?

Because.

She.

Lied.



You know it.

I know it.

Probably the guy with her knew it.

So, I've been wondering all day, if she knew it.

Because I think she probably did.  You don't get to be over 350lbs (and yes, that's my guesstimate of her weight, but I'm probably pretty close) by not being able to eat two hot-dog sized sausages.

I'll admit it, at first my thoughts were somewhat catty.  I wanted to say, "Honey, you and I both know that not only can you eat those two sausages all by yourself, you have before, and you probably will again."  Not nice, Dorian, not nice.  Of course, I didn't actually say that to her.  It popped into my head momentarily is all.  But what has stuck with me all day is this question:

Why did she bother saying that in the first place?
Why not just be honest?

I'm guessing it probably had to do with her being with this guy.  If I pretend I can't eat all this food, then maybe I'll magically look thinner in his eyes.  Or maybe he'll think to himself, "Gee, she doesn't eat that much.  All this extra weight must be some sort of illusion, or a curse."


I don't know what she was thinking.  I just know what kind of rationalization I might come up with if I were in her shoes.

And believe me, I can be full of rationalizations.

I can come up with tons of fully logical, rational reasons why I can't....
Exercise:  It hurts.  I don't like getting sweaty.  I don't have time.  I don't have the money for equipment or a gym membership or even new tennis shoes.


Track my eating:  I forget. I don't have time to write everything down.  I can't figure out the WW points.  I went over my points, so I might as well give up for the rest of the day.


Eat healthy meals:  It's expensive to buy fresh produce, whole grains, and lean meats.  My husband wants donuts, so why shouldn't I be able to have some, too.  I've worked hard; I deserve something sweet/sugary/salty/fatty/chocolaty.  It's just one day...I'll get back on track tomorrow.

I left QT feeling sorry for this girl who not only couldn't be honest with her friend, but probably can't be honest with herself.  I don't want to be like that.  There's no use lying about what I'm doing, or not doing, to take care of my body.  My body doesn't lie!  It's showing off right now all the choices I made in the past, and how little I did to take care of myself.  Every single pound and inch scream the truth, whether my mouth decides to or not.  So, why bother with dishonesty?

So, here's me being honest.
This week was good.  I was on plan 90% of the time, or more.  On one or two days I did go over my Daily and then Weekly WW Points allotment, but exercising helped me stay in the range of weight loss.

Last week I re-joined WW and weighed 272.6 lbs.
This week I weighed in at 264.4 lbs.
So I lost 8.2 lbs my first official week back, which is an awesome start.

(Just so you know, I realize that most of this loss was probably water weight.  The first few weeks of any weight loss program are usually the biggest losses, and WW is no different.  Also, having just had a baby three weeks ago probably helped jump start the scale moving.  Just a week ago my feet were still so swollen that I could only wear sandals.  They've finally gone down to nearly normal size, so I'm sure I dumped a lot of water this week.)

So, I have a long ways to go to get to my ultimate goals, but I'm just going to focus on one baby step after another, and I'm going to do my best to remain honest with myself every step of the way.


“Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and transparent anyway.”  
- Mother Teresa