I'm so disgusted with myself. This is not where I wanted to see myself a quarter of the way through the year. I have lost virtually no weight, and I can't seem to get my butt in gear for the long haul. I'll be okay for a few days, and then something will happen, and my whole motivation will get derailed.
I know what I need to do.
It's not a matter of knowing better, because I do know better.
It's a matter of commitment.
It's a matter of wanting to be thin more than I want to stuff my face.
I think part of the problem is that I don't truly believe I can do it. I've never done it in the past, so I must not be capable of losing a significant amount of weight. I know that's a crappy thing to say to myself, but it's kinda how I feel right now, and I'm just having a hard time believing in me.
So, what am I going to do with myself, hmmm?
Am I going to spend another day stuffing my face with whatever I feel like, or am I actually going to take control of my eating and my bad habits and do something healthy with my body?
I guess we'll see what tomorrow brings.
I hope it brings a better attitude than this though, because this is just shitty.
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