Pressure Cooker

This has been one hell of a week, let me tell you.

No, really.  Sit back and I will tell you.

So there was the problem with my computer not doing what I needed it to do to make my music video for my class.  That was way stressful because the 1st draft was due Wednesday night so that other classmates could watch it, give their opinions, and the final version needs to be done by Sunday evening. 

But by Wednesday morning my computer was STILL not working for me.  I spent 2 nights in a row staying up until the wee hours of the night, and I was not a happy, nurturing person by Wednesday.

In fact, before I got to school that morning I'd already cried in the car.  Twice.  When I get tired I get emotional easily, and when I get frustrated, my emotions are very raw and just under the surface.  So, what happened next on Wednesday morning was like cranking the heat up to high under the pressure cooker that was my life at that moment in time.

I get to work and there's a video email from the superintendent.  Hmmm....I wonder what this is?  Dear Teachers, sorry, but some of you are not going to be re-hired for the upcoming school year.  What!?  WHAT!?

This was not what I wanted to hear 5 minutes before 24 second graders walked in my door.  Luckily that day my planning period started right after the pledge of allegiance, so I was able to sit down with my head between my knees and breathe. 

I'm not tenured!
I've only been here a couple of years!
Wait, what criteria are they using, anyway?  He didn't say!!
Is it going by seniority?  Cause then I'm possibly screwed.
Or by job performance?  Because then I may have snowed enough people to actually have a chance.  :O)
Oh.  Crap.I

I cried again.
And again.

It was just too much for me to deal with that day.

But I made it. 
With a lot of help from my 2nd grade teammate, who is awesome.

And at the end of the day the principal came around....

And said....

That I still had a job next year.
And so does every single one of the awesome teachers at our school.

WHEW!!! 

I cried again. 
In relief this time.

I can't help wondering about those people that were let go though.  I can't imagine what they're going through.  Let's pray for them, and teachers everywhere whose jobs are being cut because of the economy.

And other good news as well:
My sister-in-law, Jen, let me come over and use her iMac and I was able to make my music video that night and the next.  And now it's done, and fabulous, and I may switch jobs to become a video editor.  Okay, maybe not, but it sure was fun.

Tonight I plan on getting to bed before midnight, which will be only the second time this week.  Hopefully I won't have to endure this kind of week again for awhile.

However, something positive this week, is that I did not let stress and frustration become an excuse for overeating, or eating crap.  I crave chocolate when I get stressed, and I did this week, too, of course, but I took charge of my cravings by bringing Weight Watcher friendly chocolate cakies and Vitatops (muffin tops) with me.  And thankfully, they did the job.

I may not have tracked everything perfectly this week, but I am pretty sure that I stayed within my points.

And then to top it off and make today a glorious day, my Wii Fit Plus came in the mail and I got to set it up and try it out tonight.  It was a lot of fun.  I think I'm a born Hula Hooper!

So, for good reason, I wasn't able to blog over the past couple of days.  But, I've been doing good, and now that things are settling down a little bit I will hopefully be back to blogging daily.  I need my daily hit of bloggerdom to get me through the day.  :O)